Remember in the last post, I said that I would start updating more often, because I was "okay now"?

I lied.  I totally and utterly boldface lied. 

Despite the long hiatus, there's something I want this blog post to be about, something very specific, something about education.

And that thing is online schooling.

Remember that old blog post? ... where I said I was already considering alternatives?

Apparently so were my parents.  

So now I'm doing this online school thing, in which I can actually work ahead (or work behind on the flip side) without the annoyances of peers and teachers that think they are intellectually superior to me when in reality that's the only job they can work at and get away with not doing much work, because the system is corrupt.  And what do I have to say about this online schooling, this program that deprives me of social interaction, the joy of working in groups, the thrill of rushing to class, THE NUTRITION OF SCHOOL MADE MEALS?

It's actually quite nice.

 

Considering that the majority of human beings irritate me to no end and I was awkward anyway despite being in public school, this is the perfect opportunity for me to separate myself from morons and focus on academics, at my own pace.  This makes me sound like a typical antisocial nerd that only cares about school and hates humans, but the fact is the world is full of too many stupid people, people that I don't care to associate myself with, and after my fall out with Dorothy and dissolution of many friendships I only sunk deeper in human-hate.  Perhaps it is arrogant of me to consider myself not a part of the human race, but honestly I'm beginning to think that I myself am not human.  It's a sort of typical me against the world scenario-- I am the only sane man, the the entire world is my enemy. 

It's also that kind of attitude that gets people knifed on the streets, so I think it's best I stay inside.  Until I learn to be less obviously bitter.

I actually like seminary this year, too.  I got a new teacher that's a friend of a family.  So despite the fact I have to wake up at 6, it's pretty nice.  Especially since dad drives us and stuff.  And despite the fact that school has no certain set time (is on 24/7), I do have somewhat of a schedule.  Somewhat.  

Starting with waking up at 6am.

The second picture probably deserves an explaination.  Why not just like, go straight to school?  Well you see, after seminary I am still rather lethargic and don't feel like plopping myself in front of a computer screen.  So depending on the day I will most likely listen to music, watercolor, or just sit in my bed doing nothing.  Yes.  Just sitting there.  Doing nothing.  Listening to the cars pass on their way to the schools that I am not attending.  Just me and my lonely solitary life.

This is assuming I do not fall asleep as soon as I get home.  Sometimes, I am that tired.

 

If I manage to stay awake, I start school around 9:30am.  I get a whole crap load of work done.  In fact, not to brag or anything, but it's been less than a month I've been in school and I have half of the semester completed in most of my classes.  Most of them.  (Geometry is so dumb I swear.)

And then I crash at 12pm.  And never wake up.  Until a ridiculous time in the evening.

Rinse and repeat.

The past week or so I've been following even less of a schedule than that, and I think it's time to get my life in order, clean my room, set a routine, eat a healthier diet  (mom says the dark circles are also because of malnutrition, not just sleep deprivation, and I'll admit I've been doing a poor job at feeding myself), improve relationships with family, start developing a talent, write list and lists about it, I'unno, SOMETHING.  I thought that with online schooling I'd have more time to focus on writing and drawing, but motivating myself is strangely harder than usual.  If you haven't noticed though, I've gotten a tablet for digital art so my drawings on paint (well actually I use a program called SAI but) are a bit cleaner.  I got it around February.  You know.  Around the time I was busy NOT updating this blog. 

Basically, I'm in a need of a clean up, both in my enviroment and personal life.
And though my body seems to be allergic to sleep routine, it would be a good idea to start getting into some sort of schedule before my brain explodes.